I stopped at Petronas Bentong for a quick lunch after a routine work in KL yesterday. I prayed Zuhr & Asr (jama’ & qasar), then I went to the cafe inside the petrol kiosk & bought myself a tuna croissant with a sausage & a mug of cold chocolate. Beside me I saw a young guy (wearing the petrol pump shirt – I reckon the worker there) eating a packet of instant noodle and a glass of plain water. He looked so humble, so contented. He smiled at me. I smiled back at him but suddenly I didn’t feel comfortable. He may not able to afford a croissant….and maybe not able to eat or buy anything as I can. But I somehow….envy him. What if Allah loves him more than me? Since I eat more than him & have many things than him…I’ll surely be asked of all the things I have now…..
Abu Bakr (RA) used to sigh when he saw a bird & wish he would be like the bird, flying around freely without thinking the day of judgment.
It would be really nice to contemplate & muhasabah of what we have & how lucky we are. There are so many people less fortunate that us. And we should stop looking at those whom Allah gives more than us….
I fear your punishment ya Allah…but I hope for your forgiveness….